u noe wad i feel pretty guilty
i've not been taking care of this blog at all it doesnt even seem like a blog
but i'm too lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy n i seem to have so much stuff to do i
guess i'm juz not a bloggie person oh well well well
today was okiez 1st day of the week juz suxs man and there are 3 tests this wk dunno how i'll fare haii
i'm hungry
i seem to be always hungry it's scary
oh ya 2dae had discus heats it's juz so embarrassing coz i juz joined it for the points and everything and i cant throw for nuts
to think i was in canoeing last time coz my weights dropped by like half la so sucky...
now i feel weak and white it's juz really qt gross argh so unfit and FAT really muz do sumthin man oh well ohwell

this is the worst piece of shit i've ever done i feel damn stupid

well 2dae is gd fri...
and mass was solemn...
i think this is the first year that i could actually concentrate during the whole mass kinda... which is gd i guess..
remembering how Jesus died for us and why he did-- for God so loved the world he gave his only son..
well really empowering i must say.. the way He got up everytime he fell-- must persevere despite of everything really coz whatever he put us through he will guide us through it yea!

man juz came back from sch from all the crazy tests this wk... have to catch up from everything that i missed last wk which is qt a lot.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and have to deal with other stuff like my crazy mother and other stuff how niCe.
but i guess it's a gd experience and stuff la.. i dunno how some pple can miss so much of sch and yet do so damn well still... esp some pple with sleeping disorders tt are certified by the doctor.. haha and i'm talking abt goldfish!
let me tell everyone i have a classmate who looks like a goldfish i guess coz he has a sleeping disorder that's why his eyes r so round and big.. apparently tt makes him look innocent but he's horny like hell actually.. he doesnt come to sch like half the time or perhaps even more than that now, never taking into consideration what people around him feel like me! and the teachers and his other classmates.. disgusting rite? and he still does so well in his studies coz he's very blessed but tt's gd la... he has a truly retarded character too but i guess he has a gd soul so well tt's my fren goldfish for u... still my gddie fren all the same...
well talking abt frenz.. i dunno why i'm blogging so much but i think i'm a damn lousy fren.. i cant help my frenz maybe coz i suck i dunno even though i try to it still suxs all the same.. fren feels terrible i feel terrible and i dunno what to do maybe i shld juz go back to doing math though i'm not tt gd at math myself so i dun exactly noe wad i'm gd at... while people r always there for me i dunno how to help them so maybe there juz is something so wrong abt me i do not know oh well ohwell but juz haf to perservere on as i've always done in a dysfunctional(in my terms) family like mine.. so thank u all my gd frenz out there anw and well treasure ur friendship and families dearies!

man 2dae is the last day of my extended break coz i had no sch coz of drama! tmr is like first day of sch or something ughhhhhhh... and juz found out i haf phy test how nice man.. but i'm glad drama is over.. long hours and well not very nice stuff there so thank GOd it's over!
well gonna try to start doing work again though it's not gonna be easy but i'm gonna TRY! but gonna enjoy life abIt la.. by like um doing fun stuff like um POOL! haha oh man sounds so retarded.. lalalalala.. tmr gonna be die die day i'm juz gonna expect the worst man.. and seeing my class again tt's so weird.. oh well..

WOa.. i'm finally bloggin!! i've been having drama this entire week it's crazy.. everyday until like 12+ juz madness man...tt's why been neglecting my bloggie which haha i dun exactly update huh...

but i'm slowly getting used to it at this stage... haii... i'm in crew yeah... and coz i'm new and j2 and denice they all r not with me, things were really weird to begin with... but i think i'm quite glad and fortunate to actually have a chance to crew backstage la i muz say and learn stuff like that... God's grace ... and for it to end one day earlier!! well realised drama is not my kinda thing but it's ok la.. doesnt take up as much time as canoeing though rowing is more fun.. miss my k1! bloodhound! haha... 2dae was the first day of the show.. started off not too gd the damn curtains couldnt freaking close!! bad start man and the starting items were all kinda screwed up but luckily it got much better after tt.. was a gd experience though for the real day kinda thing..

2dae found out something really shocking too haii... my friend i heard actually did something so terrible and shocking tt i was damn pissed when i knew about it... den i became a lil sad coz u noe he's my fren n stuff... i dunno la sometimes some pple seem like this but they might turn out to be someone else.. really disappointing and disgusting... gross in fact oh well.. i guess juz dun trust a person too easily coz some pple out there r juz like that it's juz damn shocking..